Featured: Who am I really?
Things I Would Tell HerI want to tell her the thingsThings I Would Tell Her by Nichrysalis
I'll tell her when she’s older,
but the information terrifies her.
In order of importance:
she has luna moths in her head,
monarch butterflies in her stomach,
and a feral fetus in her womb.
are collapse-clasped and folded
in her lap;
she holds her elbows like wings
away from her ribs,
ready to flap,
I want to tell her
to keep one hand in her purse
so she can always find her keys,
to keep an eye on the door
and the door always open
so she can run if she doesn't feel safe,
but her cheeks are rorschach-splotch red
and the tension in her shoulders
warns me she's not ready
to hear this.
And there is the possibility that
maybe I’m not ready to tell
I’m just as devastated as her;
that she is surrounded by friends and family
who are violated by a community
where no man can say yes all men.
Through His Eyes (song)"Through His Eyes"Through His Eyes (song) by AnythingBtOrdinary
Thought I was nothing
But You told me who I am
All eyes were on me
A real-life mannequin
No; not again
She's so pretty
But she can't bear to face the pain she feels inside
So much hatred, doesn't wanna be alive
She didn't mean for it to go this far
Wish she could take it all back
She spent so much time believing all the lies
Lost sight of who she was
The truth she held inside
Forgot about life-what she was already worth
What was so freely given you cannot earn
Stop trying to be perfect
You don't need to try
His love for you is enough
Just see yourself through His eyes
A mission to be perfect became her new priority
Misguided by her misperception of beauty
That skinny is what's pretty
Took the reigns of her destiny
Lost control of her identity
Everybody wants to be her
The standard of perfection
But she's never good enough-still rejecting her reflection
She says it's okay; everything's just fine
Only YouThis is a song that I wrote a few years ago that is very personal to me...Only You by AnythingBtOrdinary
She cries out but no one hears her,
All the pain around her is only a blur,
And as she touches the razor to her tender skin,
She wonders what in the world LORD was I thinking.
Cause only You
Can take away the heartache,
Can take away the pain,
Can forgive me for my mistakes,
She tried to hide the pain inside,
All the time she thought she was learning to heal- when really she was blind.
She finally realized the truth,
Now and forevermore she is stuck on You!
She felt so all alone,
She didn't know where to turn
She thought she could make it on her own.
Alternative Inward Thoughts"Alternative Inward Thoughts"-Jan 29, 2014Alternative Inward Thoughts by AnythingBtOrdinary
I'm used to it
And because of that I'm addicted
Because I'm addicted
What's truly wrong-I think is beautiful
I long to be free
From what I give into so easily
I long to give in
So I can be free
And I long to push away
So that I can get out
I don't want to be who I am right now
But who I was called to be...
Not who I was made.
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